Tonight was fun. It was also sad. Someone who I haven’t known very long but is a very nice/inspiring individual doesn’t have long to live, and it makes me pretty sad and fearful. I have only spoken to her a few times but you can tell she has inspired many people.
After FC, where we I met her, a bunch of us went to McDonalds afterwards, I thought it might lighten the mood and cheer people up a bit. I went to go buy myself some comfort food, and as I was fishing around my wallet for moneys, I came across what I thought was a small piece of paper or a receipt or something of that sort. I unfolded it, and realised it actually was a piece of paper someone had left in my wallet when they bought it for me. “I love you! - Ash.” The embarrassing moment when you need to go cry in a McDonalds bathroom :(
Things like that, especially the unexpected reminders of how you screwed something up, are the worst, because they sneak up on you.
Afterwards, we all went and played pool. I think this lightened the mood a little.
And now I’m at home, feeling kinda low, restless and fidgety. I can’t seem to settle on something to do. Hmm.
